reset

right. where to start?

a lot of things happened in two years.

i've managed to get the transfer and posting that i wanted. i was happy. that is until the end of last year.

a few major things happened towards the end of last year. i was in a bit of a limbo. my new colleagues were in limbo too. personally everybody was in chaos. mine included.

the avalanche of events was a bother, but solutions eventually reared their heads. like it or not options were not given. it was do or die.

but there were good things too! it's not all bad. but when good things comes after bad things you tend to rethink things. you ponder more.

what happened at the end of 2009? well, the retaining wall that erm, retained the hill at the back of the school collapsed. how and why did it happened? a lot of contributing factors. one: the quality of the wall was not that great to begin with, it was good...but they didn't think of out side factors. what are the out side factors? that's number two and three. two: it was the monsoon season and the place is the third or fourth place in the country to receive the highest amount or rain. three: a couple of days before that there was a slight earthquake tremor 15km away from the school. malaysia is not an earthquake stricken country in the first place, but if sumatra is hit, the west coast peninsular would sometimes feels the aftermath....so all three factors put together and what would you get? a collapsed wall.

we were told to move out within two weeks, which is ridiculous at that time of the year, and also 35 people looking for houses at the same time with a two weeks deadline?...fill in the blanks for your appropriate answers please...in the end i ended up living dangerously illegally with two other people/families for a month and a half while we found our own houses.

and after we have found and settled in our houses, guess what. they decided that the whole school would be transferred to another new school 280km away, while they have a proper look at the current school. as it was still the monsoon season at the time, the rain was still falling and there was soil movement. and they cannot determined whether it was due to geological land movements or because the rain was moving the soil at the top of the fallen pile.

so, off we go after about a month preparation. that's why all of us had to reset everything.

deja vu

this is going to be a very absurd post.

all the departments sans the administrative and the support staff are placed in one large-ish room. two days ago the science dept decided to rearrage their tables around so that separated units will be able to be err, united. this trigger the restlessness in the foreign language unit to do the same because, well...they (read:we) have issues and they are a messy lot. they are also hoarders of not-going-to-use-but-can-be-useful-someday antiquities. so the head of the unit started barking (while lounging) his ideas around, and all the while saying "eh, cepat la...buat la oi", still at his table looking around drinking tea.

this morning, he and the ogre decided to move things around because the ogre is afraid of the little aunty from social science who likes to park her butt and work at his work station. also because our little corner is kinda empty when the macho man of science had to sit with his department. new sitting arrangements were made. my glass cabinet is finally a foot away. it's a bit baddy-in-the-corner-of-buildingy, but i'm kinda happy. (no fire escape in case of fire for me though) little that we know that a storm was brewing...

9 a.m. chaos erupt. people dont want to sit with another person coz they are messy, dont get along with each other, has fake friendship (you name it, they have it) - this is not from the foreign language dept though, it's from the original people who started moving around. then, bean pole of the foreign language came in, and he decided that it's not fair that they holed him up, turned his workstation into a cubicle, and because he doesnt like his view of a concrete wall.

9.30 a.m. people came to comment on the new order. for example, not people friendly "ey, very unfriendly laa...why you all do like that?" and "don wan to make friends ah?" to bean-pole and i. so i said, "not our arrangement, people put their cabinets in our area, view so ugly so we have to rearrange around them cabinets. plus, it's ol'man jenkin's idea" they said, "you trying to say it's our fault ke?" "no la, dunno who's cabinets those are. leaving around sepah-sepah like that. over kawasan some more", "err,..actually nye kan, that's ours la...tak larat nak move around, so we leave just like that. marah ke?" "i tak marah, ol'man jenkin marah"...then they left. didn't offer to say when they are going to take those cabinets.

11.30 a.m. high octane banter between cavemen. i get cornered at my cubicly-workstation. get to see cavemen at work at giving ideas and moving heavy things about. finally understand what they meant by how monkeys determine their alpha male. cant say anything, am the only female in this corner of the world...and was told to stay away cause the men are doing the work.

11.55 a.m. new arrangements. yeay! everybody is happy. wait...i think i've seen this arrangement before. where's my cabinet? bugger, it's five feet away!

of friends and ...

i found out a couple of days ago that a close friend here is getting transfered. she only applied for it a couple weeks back after she found out the supposed person for the job didn't turn up. she swooped in, and she got what she wants...i am happy for her, tho cant help but feel a little "mweh...", cant actually describe it, but hey, i guess you know.

two major events happen these past weeks. i get to hang with some friends,...and get to meet with some old-old friends as well. both things were great! we didnt have a proper hang session, but the bits of time when we're able to brings back memories. some people change , but it seems not much, apparently. heard stuff about them, that happened to them, things that they're going to do, places they're going...it gave me an avenue to ponder...it's been a while, a lot of things had happen, been achieved...people change but not much...most things that i saw, is that as we get older, we get more focussed...priorities are set...those are the biggest changes, but deep down, we are very much the same we were when we were still trying to look 'cool'...if before you're chasing your dream in becoming a rockstar, then you might still chasing it, OR you already are a rock star and is living the life, and focusing so that you still are and will still be years and years to come...

the new light of life

some people are saying that i'm happy where i am, that i'm contented, that's why i'm not going anywhere...when in fact, i'm dying to get out. it's not like i've never said it to anyone before, in fact the whole place knows!!! think that i'm going to say it at any chance i get everyday. anyhoo, the reason i'm saying this is because, coming back from the week-long holiday i get to pass by the new site, the placement that i want to go to (two hours from home, and hour from KL, and good damn 6 hours from this bloody place!!!)...there were rumours before saying that it wasnt going to be built, or that the site was taken over by a much larger, powerful and purposeful company. never had a 10 minutes drive been so wonderful than the drive along the new site...seeing it has brought a new sense of happiness and purpose for me (seriously, i'm not over-exagerating it). i cant wait for it to be completed and a letter coming in this time next year (hopefully!) telling me to move my arse and stuff to that wonderfully hillside placement...as respond to why didnt i get the move when they expected it?...well, obviously because the new placement is still being built, duh!...(although i suspect that some are wishing that i'd buggered off this god forsaken place, at least to have a little peace and quiet...)

shock of life

found out that a former student - who is only twenty-two - is married and has a child. i dont mind, i mean he was mature beyond his years, but damn! some of his other teachers are not married (including moi), or married but no children, or just got themselves bloody pregnant! (one or two has a child the same age as his son, or even younger)...that's the latest watering-hole gossip anyway!

life in shambles

i got given a major responsibility last month, but everything is in full gear towards the pending tournament in early march. bloody hell! i like life without any duty! nothing but the usual banal routine!!!...i dont like being trusted (and thrusted) with certain responsibilities. i like being seen as an incompetent so i wont be bothered with all the other stuff other people like to do so that they'll be in the limelight...i like obscurity. fine, certain people apparently "see" my potentials and want me to prove myself that i am who they see i am...i know i can do it, but then again, having lived a life of a carefree incompetent...errr, free-spirit (? hahaha!) is SO much fun.

the evenmore lower downside, everybody that has requests, dissatisfaction, complaints, they'll come to me...eh, why? like i care? (i have to though, it's me job innit?)...i mean that's what the co-ordinator is for and i'm only the one to write the letters and distribute ...

i'm a not normally a whinging ungrateful cow you know, sometimes i smile

january post

this is the case of going blindly into the unknown -

and having a bloody great time at it!

just writing in so that i have a january post. haha!

this is a month of mixed feelings and emotions, a roller-coaster of such, if i may say so.

coming back to work after being away for a month is a bit daunting. there are things that you can expect, and there are that nobody can. at least three friends wont be there, having gotten the transfer they wanted....i am happy for them, for finally they'll be able to be closer with their families; but at the same time i am a little bit jealous because i didn't, and the list which had my name in it among others was not approved by HQ....but, life goes on.

there are things that i'm quite excited about...seeing moi students again. at least i get to goof off a little with them every now and then. this year, i aim not to play around so much, more work!....well, maybe just a little bit more work. i think they have it tough as it is already, and learning should be FUN! and it works when they're having fun learning. i dont care what the bloody thick minded dinosaur says...

i've also discovered in this past week that when people keep pushing me to do stuff that i would close-up and ignore them completely