an on going hiatus

been feeling kinda weird lately...not knowing what to feel (or even how?...). what happened in the past year will be (wishfull thinking!) relayed - i know how, but i'm not sure when and in what order.

anyway, here's one of Rumi's poem for all. the one thing that has been easing the way i feel.


the Beloved

When the rose is gone and the garden faded
you will no longer hear the nightingale's song.
The Beloved is all; the lover just a veil.
The Beloved is living; the lover a dead thing.
If love withholds its strengthening care,
the lover is left like a bird without care,
the lover is left like a bird without wings.
How will i be awake and aware,
if the light of the Beloved is absent?
Love wills that this Word be brought forth.

forgive me for i have sinned...

it has been 5 months and 22 days since my last entry.

not for the lack of anything to say, but for the lack of commitment mostly...time being the essence bacuse i have too much things to do at the same time, too many ideas to put forward (and never brought to materialised), that whatever little time i got left i used it all up for rest and sleep...mostly sleep, because (i think at least) i lack it.

i also promised myself that i'd never put in anything negative and vicious in, but anything i ever wanted to say (read: vent), is always negative. i hate this, i'm annoyed at that, i think it's unfair this, that person is crap, etc etc...it's never "i heart this and that so much that..."; i mean i'd like to have the opportunity to do so, but then again, happiness doesn't always make you want to rant about anything now would it?

thrown out the window

is the resolution i made earlier this year to have a more often blog entries. in a way compared to last i year at least i have almost once a month entries, but then again i should be a bit more of an enthusiastic blogger...

the thing is i thought i was going to have less responsibilities this year, but it's exactly the opposite because though am not given 'formal' responsibilities i ended up being the one to have to do everything as the others (so-called) dont understand how to

i also noticed that this blog has become a whine-fest.

which i didnt aim it to be



i better shut up now.

jumping in the bandwagon

just so i get to have a post on this date, haha! (i know, i used this opening before - shows you how often i blog)

people are extremely hyped about this date, most citing the "once in a lifetime" event. eh, to the immortals they'll be to experience it again in 7th july 3007, so to the ones i talked to say that it's no big deal...unless of course another immortal hunt them down and cut their heads off, then...but that'a another story.

back to the original piece...people are excited with this date because they they like the number 070707...so people are rushing to get married, giving birth and other stuff on this date. apparently it's an auspicious date...with the chinese saying that seven means success (i think, correct me if i'm wrong). apparently the registry offices are packed with people registering something. question: do people rush to get divorce or die on the same date? then they can also tell people that they had something going-on on the same date.

tell you what...i like 20th july better...coz it'll be 20072007.